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November 16, 2004
Mountain Lions in the Shadows
published in September 2007 Country Extra Magazine
Chores at our farm are rarely mundane
and routine since our batch of
four male kittens were born 6 months ago. They were delivered
unceremoniously in the corner of one of the horse stalls by their
young
mother whose spontaneous adoption we accepted a mere four weeks
before,
not realizing we were accepting five kitties, not just one.
They were born under a Haflinger's nose, and amazingly survived
the
ordeal and managed to stay safe until the next day when we came
in to
clean and discovered them warming near a nice fresh pile of poop.
What
a birthing spot this mama had chosen. Thankfully Haflingers are
tolerant about sharing their space as long as you don't ask for a
share
of their food too...
We moved them and mama to a safer spot in the barn, away from big
Haflinger feet, and they thrived, getting more adventuresome by
the
week, until they are now in full adolescent glory, mock fighting
with
each other, scrambling up and down the hay bales, using the
shavings as
their personal litter box, doing rodent patrol, and most of all,
strolling along the shelves that line the stalls, breathing in
the
Haflinger smell, and rubbing their fur up against Haflinger noses
through the wire. They are best of friends with these ponies in
the
light of day, as after all they were born right in a Haflinger
bed.
But at night it's another story. Each evening as I come out to do
chores after returning home from work, it is pitch dark and the
Haflingers, out in their winter paddocks, must walk with me one
by one
back to their box stalls for the night. Only this is now far more
of an
adventure thanks to four cats who glory in stealth attacks in the
dark,
like mountain lions in the shadows, waiting for their prey to
pass by.
These rascals are two gray tabbies, one black and one gray,
perfectly
suited to be camouflaged in the northwest dim misty fall evenings
along
a barely lit pathway between paddocks and barn. They flatten
themselves tight on the ground, just inches from where our feet
will
pass, and suddenly, they spring into the air as we approach, just
looking for a reaction from either the horse or myself. It never
fails
to unnerve me, as I'm always anticipating and fearing the horse's
response to a surprise cat attack. Interestingly, the Haflingers,
used
to kitten antics all night long in the barn, are completely bored
by the
whole show, but when the tension from me as I tighten on the lead
rope
comes through to them, their head goes up and they sense there
must be
something to fear. Then the dancing on the lead rope begins, only
because I'm the one with the fear transmitted like an electric
current
to the Haflinger. We do this four times along the path to the
barn as
four kittens lay in wait, one after another, just to torment me.
By the
end of bringing in eight horses, I'm done in by my own case of
nerves.
You'd think I'd learn to stop fearing, and start laughing at
these
pranksters. They are hilarious in their hiding places, their
attempts
to "guard" the barn door from intruders, their
occasional
miscalculations that land them right in front of a hoof about to
hit the
ground. Why I haven't had at least one squished kitten by now is
beyond
my comprehension. Yet they survive to torment me and delight me
yet
another night. I cuddle them after the horses are all put away,
flopping them on their backs in my arms, and tickling their
tummies and
scolding them for their contribution to my increasing gray hair.
I'm a slow learner. These are like so many of my little daily
fears,
which seem to hide, blended in to the surroundings of my daily
life,
ready to spring at me without warning, looking like much bigger
scarier
things than they really are. I'm a four star first rate highly
skilled catastrophizer in the best of circumstances, and if I
have a
kitten sized worry, it becomes a mountain lion sized melodrama in
no
time. Only because I allow it to become so.
Stepping back, taking a deep breath, if I learn to laugh at the
small
stuff, then it won't become a "cat"astrophe, now will
it? If I can
grab those fears, turn them over on their back and tickle their
tummies
until they purr, then I'm the one enjoying a good time.
I'll try that the next time I feel that old familiar sensation of
"what
if?" making my muscles tense and my step quicken. I just
might enjoy
that walk in the dark a little more, whether it is the scary
plane
flight, the worry over a loved one's health, the state of the
economy,
or the uncertainty of what tomorrow might bring.
I'll know that behind that mountain lion is a soft loving purring
fur
ball, granting me relief from the mundane, for which I'm
extremely
grateful. Life is always an adventure, even if it is just a
stroll down
a barn lane in the dark wondering what might come at me next on the
path.
Emily from BriarCroft
http://www.briarcroft.com/emily.htm